Tired of giving in

It has been a while since my last post.. actually it has been a year! But never mind, no one reads anyway. This is just a portal for me to record my joy, vent my frustration and anger, share some experience and eventually read them back to refresh my memories.

I wasn't feeling too good today. I almost got into a car accident, I have a very bad mood and i felt dizzy. After seeing my customer today at the Summit USJ, i paid my parking ticket and went down to B3 to get into my car. While preparing to get out of the parking, i realized that I've forgotten to take the parking ticket from the Autopay machine!! I ran back up to the lobby, hoping that the guard has kept the ticket. Luckily he did.

I was blur the whole day and wasn't looking too good either. I had a heated arguement with my bf the night before. So silly, it was about buying a fridge. I was concern that he wants to spend so much money in buying such a large fridge that might not be fully utilised and pricy. There are other same range at a very much lower price and it's a good brand too. But he insisted on getting it because his mother and sister likes it. And so we argued. I was extremely upset, I cried the whole night without him knowing. I had cried myself to sleep and looking horrible the next morning. No wonder I was feeling dizzy and all.. I didn't get a good rest. What made all this worse is that the next morning my mother provide me a bad news which is about financial. I couldn't help it but to get more upset and I hid somewhere to cry.

I gave up a lot of things and gave in a lot of times. Why am I always giving in? Why doesn't he take a stand and make me happy for once..I'm just so tired of this. I had no one to talk to.. and I was pretending to be ok the whole day. And work has not been going so well with my boss being not helpful at all. There's a lot to worry about.. I desperately need to escape!